tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-367089072009-11-14T15:38:11.325ZHappines is chemical.J. Wibblehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13871369377910059267noreply@blogger.comBlogger120125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36708907.post-61288079945324688912009-11-09T19:26:00.004Z2009-11-13T23:40:32.313Z

(One little Jägermeister didn't like being alone...)I'm getting more and more spaced; for a few days I've been wandering around in a fog of depersonalisation, not entirely sure what's real and what's not and having limited energy to deal with the real world.It was my birthday on Friday, I am now 22. Last thing I remember I was 18; everything since then is something of a slow-motion blur leading

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Once again, the BBC makes my blood boil."School leavers applying to English universities will get more data about courses under government plans to treat them more like consumers.A food labelling-style system will flag up teaching hours, career prospects and seminar frequency, says the Department of Business, Innovation and Skills."(BBC, 1st November 2009)I've said it before and I'll say it again

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Enjoy.

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My last post was slightly cryptic and less than informative, for which I apologise. In my defence I have been on-call pretty much 24/7 for the past couple of weeks and my brain has been melting out of my ears somewhat.Last weekend my mum came up to visit, my sister came with her and is going home tomorrow. Having guests always makes me tired, even though I was very happy to see them both and

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How do you leave the past behindWhen it keeps finding ways to get to your heart?- Rent (Rent, 2005)

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- Dr. Kevin Casey (Michael J. Fox), Scrubs: S3E12, "My Catalyst"Playing the piano is depressing at the moment. It's not helped by the fact that someone often wanders in when I'm playing and I instantly feel nervous and almost ashamed of my playing, which means I make more mistakes and sound completely cack-handed. It's embarassing.When I left high school I was working towards grade 5 piano - I

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Lots of people have been commenting on the welfare 'reform' proposals lately, which seem to mostly consist of Labour and the Tories arguing about who is going to beat disabled people with the biggest stick. I haven't posted on this yet, mostly because it makes me so depressed and/or angry, and partly because other people like Seaneen, Aethelread, Brainblogger and BenefitScroungingScum have

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All we really want is affirmationAffirmation's all we're working towardsSo I don't need your wealth accumulation, you can keep itSecond encoreSecond encore(Tim Minchin)

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Sleep-wake cycle: 24h (14-10)Sleeping time: 5amWaking time: 3pmT cycle: Day 1/14 (injection day +2)Cigarette consumption: 2.5/5h (~10/20h) Goldberg: 56BMI: 29.7The most important of these figures are the last two; B negates A slightly, but not enough to take the edge off the "...oh for fuck's sake" feeling of the day. I'm thinking my meds need to be upped, but that requires getting up early

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I've had a number of ideas for blog posts floating around in my head recently, but my cognitive processing has been so poor recently that trying to articulate these ideas has generally met a brick wall fairly early on. This post is an idea for a scientific study which popped into my head while reading the book I mentioned in my last post.It has been noted that autistic people tend to prefer

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I'm currently reading a book called Born on a Blue Day, written by a guy called Daniel Tammet who has Asperger's and savant syndrome. I'm intrigued by books about autism and Asperger's, especially those written by people with the condition, as they describe many experiences I can relate to.A while ago I did this test on the Wired website, an online version of the Autism-Spectrum Quotient (AQ).

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I'm pissed off at the moment. I'm angry with myself, with the water company, with the Student Loans Company, with my husband and with my computer.I'm angry with my computer because as I started writing this post it decided to spontaneously shut down, so I had to wait for it to boot back up and lost my train of thought. At least it saved what I'd already written.I'm angry with myself because I

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I went to the audiologist yesterday to get my hearing tested for the first time in 6 years. I didn't actually have any prior baseline to go on, as I had hearing tests done regularly for several months when I was 14/15 and they wouldn't tell me anything about my hearing loss or whether I had a hearing loss; I spoke to my mother earlier and she said they never said I did have a hearing loss, but

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Yesterday was not a particularly good day. Firstly, after finally getting through to Trinity Guildhall they tell me the Bristol centre isn't doing theory exams this time around; the next nearest centre is Cardiff, and getting everyone there for 9.30am on a Saturday is next to impossible. I do have the option of using the ABRSM, although this means a last-minute change of syllabus for both

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Just watched the third and final episode in Channel 4's Benefit Busters series, and it was a truly crap episode. The series started very well - I was very impressed with the first episode, and especially with the advisor featured, and although the second episode was fairly mediocre it did at least discuss some of the issues relating to finding work for long-term unemployed people, and followed

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Made a happy discovery today - volunteering is not counted in the 'permitted work' rules as these only apply to paid work. There is actually no limit to how much volunteering I can do, as long as it's not paid (I am allowed to claim expenses). This works brilliantly with my plan of using volunteering to test the waters and see if I can gradually increase my hours until I'm in a position where I

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Further to my last post, I took my own initiative and went out and got myself a job!...Well, sort of. Was in town with my girlfriend Dorothy[1] and her mother, looking in a charity shop and her mum said that she'd been talking about volunteering so why didn't she ask in here? We did so, and went upstairs to speak to the manager and I said I'd go along, see if they could give me a few hours a

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I've been looking at the New Deal for Disabled People, which isn't nationwide but does run in my area. I'm wondering if it might be worth trying out to see if they can help me find a job I can actually do.I want to be able to work. I'm sick of the benefit claimant stereotypes, sick of the constant hassle of trying to claim, sick of the insecurity, sick of the fact that I'm 21 and I know the

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(Please note: this is a summary of a post that will be extended later when I have slept. G-d, I hate circadian rhythm failures. Be warned, if you have any delusional hopes left about the British education system, I am about to destroy them.)Two new plans to get poor bright kids to go to university: artifical grade inflation and not giving student loans to middle class kids.Why don't we just

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There is currently someone parked outside my house, on double yellow lines, right on a corner; and most irritatingly of all, the car is a glistening, spotless Land Rover without so much as a scratch on it. I really, really can't stand people who drive spotlessly clean Land Rovers around the city. What the smeg is the point? Exactly how small is your cock? I can hazard a guess it's bigger than

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There is a great post on Aethelread's blog today in anticipation of the Benefit Busters programme on Channel 4 at 9pm tonight, which I intend to watch and review in due course. His post also included a link to this steaming pile of horse manure."A centre-right think tank, Policy Exchange, are predicting that the number of working-age adults claiming benefits will hit 6,000,000 this month. They

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Since I woke up at 3am I've been wanting to smoke pretty much constantly. I had very little to eat yesterday and I'm starting to think my brain has replaced the urge to eat with the urge to smoke without telling me. With my dysfunctional relationship with food, and the fact that nicotine is an appetite suppressant, it wouldn't surprise me.I'm not feeling quite as brassical as I was a few days

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My brain appears to have been replaced by a cauliflower. 'Brain fog' is really an understatement in describing this symptom, not least because it affects everything else too; vision goes funny, coherent sentences take several minutes to produce and parts of the body occasionally decide not to cooperate with what is required of them. Thankfully this means my paranoia is currently abated, as I am

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My paranoia hasn't been getting better, and I've realised I've been spending a great deal of time in my room with the curtains shut and am rapidly descending into my Bernard Black impression. Something in the back of my mind earlier went, "I should probably talk to someone about this..." - and then the thought crossed my mind of, who exactly? I don't have a mental health team. I don't have any

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